Amanda and Sarah are best friends. Getting into trouble together and are as close as sisters.
Amanda has an unsettled home life, and while her mother is in hospital, she and Sarah go into the woods to pick Bluebells.
They get attacked, and the attacker cuts Amanda's throat, and while she is bleeding out, she witnesses his horrific attack on Sarah.
He leaves Amanda for dead - not realising her desperation to survive.

Phew! This is one absolutely fantastic, unputdownable read.

There is so much in this book - Amanda's childishness and immaturity, and then her desperation to find Sarah, and to find Maggie.
There are trigger warnings at the beginning of the book. Take heed of them.

Amanda suffers from survivor's guilt, and is obsessed with finding Sarah.
The book is tense, and even the reader feels frustrated as Amanda struggles to find her voice. The process takes longer than she envisaged, and she cannot bring herself to write the entire story of what she went through on the white board.

The trauma matures her, and, her step father, Paul, who I suspected of being involved in the attack in some way, or was hiding something, imparts wisdom instead.

The book is compelling, and deep, emotional, and cruel. But also uplifting, knowing that a human has hidden reserves and with the right treatment, can overcome whatever is thrown at them in life.

I have no choice but to award 5/5 stars for this book, I would award it 10/10 if I could.

I highly recommend.

Thank you Netgalley and BooksGoSocial/ J.E. Rowney for this ARC

Oh. My. God. What a book! My jaw is still on the floor and my heart still in my thraot because this was so damn intense. I was invested from the first sentence and while I wanted to do nothing but keep reading, I had to pause at some points and take a breath.

I don't even know where to begin here. Surely not your typical thriller. But a story that holds you in your fangs and does not let go again, making you staring at the wall after you are done reading. J.E. Rowney, you are e genious! That is all I can say here. What a great, beautiful book! Thank you for that!

Oh wow all I can say is Amanda you stayed with me after reading this epic thrilling read of a story. This book wasn’t what I expected at all but the silencing of a victim and the way the plot line twists and turns from then on left me lost for words. I don’t think I can do this book enough justice in the review all I can say is you have to read it to feel what it leaves you with.
Amazing 5 star arc for me so thanks NetGalley for the opportunity to read.

This book wasn't what I expected, it was so much more. I was so invested in Amanda's story of survival in the aftermath of a horrific attack on her, and her best friend Sarah. It's a thriller, a survival story, a mystery and so much more.

this book had me in an emotional ball of mush and "no!". i felt truly attached to Amanda and her story. more so than i have to a character in a long while. i had so much compassion and heart felt fear and pain for her. what happened was traumatic in itself but than the after affects and how she was to handle what comes next. how does one do that when no one seems to be telling her what she needs to know. and when she cant voice the pain she needs to, the memories she needs to.
when the victim is silenced. when the victim has literally had her voice stolen. What do they do then? this books had me alllll in. i was far to invested in getting through this. i had to know how Amanda got through this or what happened to her next. i needed to know she would be ok. because she would be right? she had to be right????,,,,
this book was definitely a top top top top top top read.
very intense but in that beautiful way thriller can be. a total success when they are by the way.