Blurb:

NEW N A M E .
NEW F A M I L Y.
S H I N Y.
NEW.
ME . '

Annie's mother is a serial killer.

The only way she can make it stop is to hand her in to the police.

But out of sight is not out of mind.

As her mother's trial looms, the secrets of her past won't let Annie sleep, even with a new foster family and name - Milly.

A fresh start. Now, surely, she can be whoever she wants to be.

But Milly's mother is a serial killer. And blood is thicker than water.

Good me, bad me.

She is, after all, her mother's daughter...

OMG I couldn't put this book down! There are a couple of major twists that I just did not see coming. I loved it! 5*

This book is dark and atmospheric with very well formed characters and it kept me page turning until the end,I would not want to be a young girl these days with the peer pressure and social media, I enjoy some social media as an adult but would worry if I had a teenager using it.I think I've gone off at a tangent now so will just say this book is well worth a read and lives up to the hype.Thanks to Netgalley and the publishers for an ARC in return for an honest review.

With Good Me Bad Me, Ali Land has given us the perfect psychological thriller.

Annie’s mother is a serial killer. For years, she’s been killing little children and getting away with it. But one day, aged 15, Annie can’t take the horror of her mother’s actions any more and turns her into the police. Annie is given a new name (Milly), a new foster family and a new life – but her mothers trial date is looming and she knows she’ll have to testify.

And all this happens in just the first couple of chapters.

This breakneck paced and deeply engaging book is a real treat. I read the whole thing in under a day – a day I was really meant to be doing something else. The characterisation is terrific – both the slow creepy build of getting to know Milly, and the rich creation of the incidental characters. Milly’s spoilt, vicious step-sister and dim, desperate friend were particular treats to read.

The voice of the novel is extraordinary, capturing the conflict at the heart of Milly’s character – with a mother like hers, will she ever turn out to be good? Offering no easy answers, this is a perfect book club read – a novel that makes you want to argue about the characters as if they’re your friends.

Essentially, this book does everything that a psychological thriller should, and does it well. A flawed but magnetic protagonist, an unflinching delving into our messiest emotions, a lingering sense that all is not what it seems… And crucially, a pace so quick that it never occurs to you for a moment to wander off. This book demands your attention, taking over lunch hours and bus rides until it’s done.

A rich, dark and gripping psychological thriller, this bold debut will be everywhere this year. Don’t be like I was and refuse to read something (The Girl On The Train) because it’s “too popular” – if you like this kind of book, get a copy NOW for your next long train journey. An absolute cracker.

5/5

I'm very much in two minds about this book, which I suppose is quite appropriate.
On one hand, I really enjoyed it. Each page brought new information and new emotions. Each chapter brought new complications for the characters. Each of these complications brought solutions which influenced the story in unexpected ways, meaning there were plenty of shocking discoveries.
The book had an interesting style. Being written from the point of view of a fifteen year old enabled plenty of insight into her thoughts and feelings, which otherwise wouldn't come across. Personally, this style also drew me closer to the character of Milly, made me empathise with her even.
On the other hand however, I felt that towards the end, it became a little predictable. Some people may like this, but personally, I like twists and suspense. Not only that, but I felt slightly let down by the ending. So many unanswered questions, loose ends and missing details. Again, for some people this may be what they like but I prefer to have everything tied up, even if the ending isn't a happy one. Although I do appreciate that with this particular ending, tying leaving no questions unanswered would've made the book substantially longer.
Overall I'd give Good Me Bad Me 3.5 out of 5. I would definitely say that it's worth reading if you have a chance as it has quite a unique style and an intriguing storyline. However if you're anything like me, just prepare to be left wanting to know more.

Wow, this one hit the psycho spot. In the opening chapters, Annie informs the police of her mother's activities as a child serial killer. She is immediately taken away and placed with foster parents under conditions similar to witness protection and Annie becomes Millie. Millie's new life doesn't go so well when she starts being bullied by her foster sister, Phoebe. She has a good relationship with her foster father, Mike, who also acts as a therapist to her, and a strange, almost controlling relationship with Saskia, her foster mother.

With Millie narrating, we read of her innermost feelings and thoughts and learn a little of the ghastly treatment at the hands of her mother. Millie is almost totally consumed by the overpowering presence and voice of her mother who is now in prison awaiting trial. She's learned a lot from her mother, she reads people well and uses her experiences to manipulate those around her. Millie is a complex character, in fact all the characters are complex – they all have issues and secrets surrounding their lives and this all adds to the disquieting and manipulative way they all interact with each other.

The writing style took a little getting used to. It's sometimes minimal, a little bit staccato, sentences short and abrupt. Once you get used to this style, accept it as detached thoughts, it becomes a quick compelling read, never pleasant, often chilling and shocking.

When her mother is imprisoned for violent crimes against children, 15 year old Milly is sent to a foster home. Her foster father is a psychologist and it soon becomes apparent that he intends to make a study of Milly and her mother.

Traumatised by her home life Milly is more than happy to fit in to her new family in the hope that the arrangement will become permanent. With a flaky foster mother and a jealous foster sister, however, all is not plain sailing.

While Phoebe, her ‘sister’, who is in the same class at the private school the girls attend, does everything she can to make her life a misery, Milly attempts to rise above the challenges presented. Bullied by the other girls who side with Phoebe, Milly draws comfort from her friendship with a younger girl from the local sink estate. She is determined not to be like her mother and harms herself in an effort not to harm others.

Despite her best efforts things do not go smoothly. Humiliated after a crush on a teacher is repudiated, she discovers secrets which both anger her and give her power. Though outwardly well-behaved she finds ways to cause trouble for those who hurt her and shows through inner dialogue her dismissal of the adults who are trying to help her.

This is a novel with an unreliable narrator, where truths are hidden and instincts suppressed. The ending is shocking but once revealed it is obvious that everything has been leading up to this and that no other outcome could be possible. I was gripped throughout.

This was a gripping, dark, enthralling and disturbing. The book starts with a 15 year old girl reporting her child-serial killer mother to the police and the story that then unfolds is her attempt to balance her feelings, her duty to be a witness, her school-life, fitting in to a foster family and a new school and dealing with an abusive past.
It is hard to review without spoilers so I will just say this was a really good read and is ideal for those who like psychological thrillers and dark reads.

A fascinating and chilling debut. This is the story of the daughter of a serial killer. She is living a new live with a foster family under a different name, while her mother is on trial. Desperate to escape her past and not be like her mother, Good Me Bad me ends up being quite the addicting psychological thriller. It's intriguing, the idea of nature vs nurture. Is Milly destined to be just like her mother or can she truly get a fresh start? There's a good amount of crossover appeal found in Good Me Bad Me. Adults and mature ya readers would surely love. I was deeply engrossed in the story. It ends up being a brilliant character study. Highly recommended!

"Good Me Bad Me" is exactly the kind of book I love! It's a psychological suspense so dark and twisty...I kept wondering whether the author is also a psychologist? How else can you explain the depth of her insight into the main character's psyche?! Having said that, I am glad the author spared us the details of the children's murders. That would've been too much. I hate it when writers try to make the book shocking by revealing the most violent details. Ali Land certainly doesn't need it. The book is perfect the way it is. Thank you so much, to both the author and NetGalley.

This was a great start for 2017, a little depressing but great. Good Me, Bad Me is powerful debut which packs an emotional punch, offering a glimpse into the psyche of a damaged girl

Annie is starting life anew. She’s been given a new name and a new foster family and she’s ready to try to move on from the ghosts of her past. But before that, she must give evidence in a court case, where her mother stands trial for 12 counts of child murder. She’s the daughter of a serial killer, and it takes more than new surroundings to erase the ghosts of her past.

The author expertly flits between past and present, gradually revealing snippets of Annie’s life with her psychotic mother, and the horrific events which took place. In the present, Annie – now named Milly – is struggling with settling in at a new school, dealing with her bitchy foster sister and preparing for her court case, all the while fighting her deepest fears that underneath it all she may be just like her mother.

“Yes, I’ll always be Annie to you but to others I’m Milly. Siamese twins inside me, at war. Good me. Bad me.”

There’s something quietly subtle about this novel – there are some big twists, but it wasn’t really about them for me – the true horror is in what’s left unsaid. It’s an extremely character driven tale, a twisted coming-of-age for the protagonist, but it’s not just Annie/Milly that has secrets; the author lives up to her title theme exploring the good and the bad in the characters, from teenage bullies to absent mothers to serial killers.

Annie’s voice is strong and authentic, as Ali Land creates an intriguing study of a young protagonist who is simultaneously sympathetic and disturbing. It was no surprise to read that this debut author’s background is in Child and Adolescent Mental Health. She’s created a story with weight, one which explores the darkest corners of of the human psyche but is completely grounded in reality, and shows that even those who commit truly terrible crimes are still human.

An unusual story looking at the feelings of a daughter who has reported her murdering mother to the police. She suffers from enormous guilt and struggles with her peers at a new foster family and school. I did wonder if this was a YA book as it looks at many aspects of a school girl's life.
The story is definitely worth reading although the tone of the writing is very similar to others in the expanding genre of psychological thrillers on the shelves at present.

A very gripping twisted thriller.
When a mother commits depraved acts that her child witnesses what are the consequences? Is it possible for that child to recover and put the demons of the past behind them; find a family again, find a life? That is what Milly is experiencing whilst in foster care with a psychologist's family, trying to settle in to a new school, make a friend, take up her art again aswell as testify at the trial of her mother. Clearly damaged by what she experienced this story unveils the complex thoughts and fears Milly internalises, and the chilling consequences of her life before.
I thought the voice of this narration was very cleverly written with a great amount of emotion and even compassion. Nobody is perfect within this story, emphasising the good and bad in everyone and the often fragile line between pain and cruelty.

Good Me, Bad Me is one of those books that seems to have gotten a lot of hype. They’re the type of books I normally stay away from – at least when they are first released, frightened I’ll be disappointed. In this case, though, I couldn’t resist. The description sounded right up my street and also a little different from my usual reads. I have to say I’m glad I took the plunge because it was different and just what I needed after a string of not so hot books.

It starts with Milly (or Annie as she was) turning her mother into the police for child abuse and murder. It’s a shocking opening and grabs you immediately, presenting you with an image that isn’t graphic in any way but still stays with you throughout the book. You are left in no doubt Milly’s mom is guilty and a monster, someone who should go to prison for a very long time.

What you aren’t so sure about is Milly, who is the only voice you hear in the book, as she tries to settle with her new foster family and prepare for the court case where she will be the “star” witness. Starting a new life isn’t easy and her foster sister, Phoebe, isn’t happy to have her around, especially as Milly takes up too much of her parents’ time. Phoebe goes out of her way to make life difficult for Milly, who only seems to want to be friends – well, just make friends in general, she is a lonely girl.

Or at least that’s what it seems like at first because there is a darker side to Milly and, after being drawn in by her story and feeling a lot of sympathy for her, I started to feel unsure. Slowly, secrets from her past are revealed and she does things that maybe aren’t as nice as she would want you to believe. I couldn’t tell if I was being played, if Milly was maybe a chip of the old block, or if her behaviour was a result of her wanting to fit in and be loved.

It made for a compelling read and I found Milly a compelling character, one I wanted to understand but was also maybe a little afraid of, very much like the people around her. They wanted to be sympathetic, wanted to believe she was an innocent victim, but wondered – was she really? Or at least I think that’s what they thought because the only voice you hear is Milly’s so you only get her take on what is said and done. It’s her version – and the question is whether it’s the true one.

I thought Ali Land did a really good job with Milly, of creating someone you didn’t know if you liked but felt you should give a chance to because of what had happened to her. By making her 15, going on 16, it did feel like there was a grey area there – that nagging question of why Milly maybe hadn’t done something sooner to speak out. Some of these things are answered in the book but I won’t say because of spoilers but there are a few times when I had “lightbulb” moments, where Milly would reveal something or do something that completely changed my opinion of her.

Of course, because this is Milly’s story, you don’t get to know the other characters that well and the foster family are somewhat two dimensional as a result. Then again, as Milly’s character starts to emerge, maybe this was on purpose, because in a way they weren’t necessarily real to her but people to be manipulated to reach an end. Her mother was much more real, or at least a very real monster.

Seen through the eyes of Milly you see confusion, this is a woman who she loved but also hated. You never meet her or hear from her directly but she dominates a lot of the pages. And you see through Milly’s memories and nightmares of her just what type of woman her daughter might become. I liked this about the book, that I kept second guessing myself about Milly.

In fact, there wasn’t much I didn’t like if I’m honest, other than maybe the final twist. I am not sure I needed that. I felt I had a good ending, a slightly ambiguous one that seemed to go with the Milly I knew. So, although I was proved right in the final chapter, I would have liked to have been left with a bit of a question mark. It’s a small thing and didn’t stop me liking the book though, which I did – a lot (if you can like a book about a child murderer, which I guess is another post entirely!).

Netgalley provided me with a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review. I was worried about requesting this book as when I first saw this in a book haul for some reason I thought it was going to be a heavy read. It is totally the opposite of what I thought. I loved the writing style of this book.

The story is about Milly whose name has been changed from Annie to protect her identity. Milly is in foster care because her mum is on trial for murdering young children. Milly wants to put everything behind her and start a new life but Milly too has suffered abuse from her mother. She can still hear her mother whispering in her ear when she is alone at night. This scares her because she feels that she must have bad in her too. Her mother is on the front page of all the newspapers and Milly finds it increasingly hard to keep her identity a secret. On top of that the daughter of her new foster family hates her on first sight.

I am quite sensitive and cannot stand to read about abuse, especially anything involving children. I was a bit nervous about how much detail about the crimes and the abuse Milly suffered the author would go into. I was relieved that the author managed to get across the seriousness of the abuse and murders without going into a lot of detail. I would have enjoyed the book more if I had known this beforehand.

As I was reading I had no idea in what direction the story was going to take. I thought it was a very interesting story and a bit different to the normal psychological thrillers that I read. I would definitely be interested in reading more from this author.

Wow what a pager turner!
I am always amazed when I come across a book where the story and characters feel so real that I keep having to remind myself that it's only fiction. Good Me Bad Me hooked right from the first page, and finished it within 24 hours. The tension was just right for me building slowly, with Milly's desire to throw off her relationship with her mother but still clinging to that family bond. The relationships within the new foster family were fascinating and felt very realistic, as did being the new girl at school. Even though I finished this a few days ago, I'm still thinking about it and will be recommending to family and friends. Be warned though it is disturbing although not explicit, and probably won't suit readers who don't like the dark side of psychological thrillers.
Thanks so much to NetGalley and Penguin UK - Michael Joseph UK for my digital copy.

Annie's mother is a serial killer. At the age of 15 she hands her mother into the police. As her mother's trial looms , the secrets of her past won't let Annie sleep. Even after getting a new name, Milly, and living with a foster family she is her mother's daughter at the end of the day.

Wow another fabulous Phycological thriller. Well written, fast paced and page turning.. Highly recommend.

I would like to thank NetGalley, Penguin UK - Michael Joseph and the author Ali Land for my ARC in exchange for an honest review.

I loved this - great writing, interesting characters, seriously dark in places, exciting and gripping. Really recommended and I would expect this to be a big success. Would make a great film as well.

This is a very unusual story. Milly's mother is a serial killer, having killed 9 young children and subjecting Milly herself to all kinds of ill treatment. Now Milly is living with a foster family while she awaits giving evidence at her mother's trial. The story is told in the first person, but how reliable is her narrative? After all, she is the daughter of a monster...............
I would recommend this as a great read - thanks to NetGalley for a preview copy.

This was a powerful read for me, one of those books that stays with you long after you turn the last page. Milly in particular is still lingering in the back of my mind, clearly she captivated me even if I’m still not quite sure exactly how I feel about her. Good Me Bad Me is a unique story and one that left a lasting impression on me.

Milly’s mother is a serial killer and she’s had enough, so she turns her in to the police. We meet Milly as she’s getting ready to live with her new foster family; father Mike, mother Saskia and daughter Phoebe. To Milly, they seem like the perfect family, everything she’s never had. Mike doubles as her psychologist which is interesting but also seems to blur the lines a bit. Saskia is a flighty, disengaged woman and Phoebe is a classic high school mean girl. She is not pleased that her family has taken Milly in and she doesn’t even know the truth. The only people who are aware what Milly’s mother has done is Mike, Saskia and the headmaster at her new private school.

This is an intense character study inside the mind of Milly. She’s understandably struggling with many issues, but the biggest may be the guilt she feels about betraying her mother. She’s about to go to trial for the brutal killing of nine very young children and Milly knows it’s all because of her. There is a constant battle of good versus evil inside her head, she’s always wondering if the good part of her will win or will the dark, violent part from her mother overcome and consume her? Land has a peculiar writing style with subtle nuances, but it works brilliantly here as it really fits as to how you would imagine a damaged girl such as Milly to think and speak.

I can’t accurately describe how I feel about Milly. On one hand I feel extremely emphatic towards her, she was raised in a house of horrors where unspeakable things were occurring and to be honest, most times she comes across as shockingly well adjusted. She desperately wants to fit in to her new family and school, but unfortunately Phoebe makes it her mission to make her life a living hell. The cattiness is accurately frightening and I found myself thanking the stars that I’m well beyond my high school years. Then on the other hand, she will have a thought or a moment that makes me uneasy and chilled right to the bone. It’s unsettling to say the least and that’s probably the best word I could use to describe my entire experience here.

This is an impressive debut, with a slow burn and a sense of dread bubbling under the surface. Don’t mistake the slowness for weakness though, it surely delivers on all levels. It’s dark,tortured and obsessive and I still can’t decide if I trust Milly or not. It’s still haunting me days after I finished it, but I’m not terribly surprised as it raised quite a few deeply profound questions. Are we a product of our environment? Is it more about the DNA we’re born with? A little of both? Milly grappled with these questions continuously and was almost fighting against herself to push away the bad parts of her. I could blather on about this one forever, but I’ll spare you all for now and just end with this; if you’re looking for a highly intelligent psychological thriller that won’t let you out of its clutches, this is for you.

This disturbing, dark novel had me hooked from the start, and I was unable to put it down.
It is written in the first person, in the present, which allows the reader access to everything Milly is thinking, or almost everything...The style is short, sharp, and very easy to read .Her descriptions are sensory and visual, they frequently start off as normal observations, and then with a twist there is an horrific memory, or a chilling comment which pulls you up short. That is a shock,you do not really know your narrator at all.
Having gone to the police about her mother, you would hope that Annie, whose name is changed to Milly, would have a better quality of life, but instead she has to face horrific bullying, as well as the mental stresses of preparing for a trial where she is the witness, all while housed in a foster home which is itself dysfunctional.
Milly’s mother is ever present through the novel, with Milly continually speaking to her in her head, revealing her dilemma of fear versus love. This novel raises so many questions; is a murderer loveable? Why did she give up her mother to the police? What was the final straw? Can she be good?
Ali Land has written an amazing first novel, I read in an interview that she was a children’s mental health nurse for ten years, so is well qualified to write about young people’s issues.In doing so she provokes discussion around how to care for children who have been damaged by their pasts.