A journey through lifetimes, pain, and healing, this story invites you to explore the depths of the soul.

Guided by past-life regression, the power of ayahuasca, and a simple question from his son—“Where have my other mummy and daddy gone?”—the author confronts the darkness of history and childhood trauma. Each step reveals not just the weight of past lives but a deeper truth: our souls are eternal, and there is always hope for healing.

This isn’t just a story of suffering—it’s one of redemption, spiritual awakening, and the courage to face the toughest truths. As the author answers the persistent question, “Are you sure?” from ayahuasca, he discovers that the path to peace lies not in escaping pain, but in embracing it.

Prepare to be challenged, to have your heart stirred, and to emerge with a renewed sense of purpose and understanding.

“At times harrowing, challenging, gorgeous, agonizing, dark, brilliantly uplifting, transcendent, shattering—Utton has traversed the entire spectrum of life and mind and existence, it seems, and brought the reader along with him.” – Jonathan Smith, Editor

Nigel Utton is a spiritual healer, biodynamic counsellor, QHHT practitioner and has a first class masters in osteopathy. He was a Principal of two schools in England and taught primary education for twenty three years. His schools were known for their inclusive practice and welcoming ethos. He served as a Norwich City Counsellor in England. He is on the Board of the World Freedom Alliance and co-ordinates the EducationCharter.org, an organisation linking together transformative educators across the world.
In this book he plots his spiritual journey through ayahuasca with the Brazilian Native tribes to training as a past life regression hypnotist. He tells us what he has learned from many past life regressions and ceremonies with the native people of Brazil.