The easiest way to get someone’s attention is to stop wanting it.

Rahel was five when she met eight-year-old Janosh, and fourteen when she realized she loved him as more than a stepbrother—talk about a poisoned apple.

After three bittersweet years of secrets and aching closeness, Rahel decides she’s had enough. Aided by her two best friends, liquid courage and a set of lovingly drawn penises, she makes a plan: stop revolving around him. Finish school with the kind of kick-ass grades that will get her into medicine, find a job that keeps her out of the house when he’s visiting, and hopefully, eventually, fall for someone real.

There’s only one problem: Janosh’s utter reluctance to allow for any kind of distance between them.

This slow-burn romance is an emotional rollercoaster that swoops high and dips low—a fun ride featuring snappy dialogue, mutual pining, and true love with a touch of the forbidden.